Days 4 & 5

Torture.

Day 4 was pretty much torture. I woke up starving.. what else is new. The egg whites just don't cut it for me. which means I've been eating two eggs a day. My cholesterol has always been normal, so I hope I'm not messing it up too much. I am really looking forward to the day I can have grains, so a bowl of oatmeal is an option in the morning. I prefer oatmeal for breakfast and have no problem eating it plain (though a little bit of brown sugar is amazing). I wouldn't even mind the greek yogurt so much if I could add some whole grain/ high fiber cereal to it.

Tangent. For reals though, I sorta cheated on Day 4. Well, I really cheated. I had a work lunch and went to dim sum. Things started out bad- my coworkers refused to let me sit there with a summer salad. I already broke the rules with it because it had shrimp. In an attempt to get me to eat something else, they ordered a lot of steamed dim sum options. Which is when I had pork and shrimp steamed dumplings :O Just one of each!! Then they bullied me into eating dessert- one little sesame rice ball (which I later learned is deep fried). OOPS. I behaved the rest of the day.

Day 5 wasn't so bad, but I cheated.. AGAIN! I'm noticing a trend. Friday at work is Philz Phriday- we all take the semi-long walk to Philz and spend a lot of money on semi-fancy hipster coffee. I like it because they add cream and sugar for you and the coffee just tastes magnificent.  I knew I'd be in trouble going there... but I couldn't resist. I ordered the Mocha Tesora- delish coffee with cocoa powder. It would be zero cal if ordered plain.. but.. I asked for light cream and sugar *blushing*. Whatever, I say. It was PHRIDAY! Before a three day weekend!! I deserved it. Then we had Pinkberry catered in so I had a 4oz plain tart with fresh strawberries and blueberries. I counted it toward my probiotic and fruit serving. HA!Of course, I behaved the rest of the day.

I don't see the harm in allowing myself these little cheats. Save for the deep fried rice sesame sugar ball, I am not overdoing it, and the fact that I felt satiated and fabulous after a coffee with just a little bit of cream and real sugar is a good thing. And it was a fun treat. Even with the cheats, I can see I'm really getting used to not eating a ton of carbs and I don't really miss them. Still, I would like to have some more fuel in the mornings and look forward to adding oatmeal in the next couple of weeks.

To anyone reading this who is suffering through the first few days: it does get better! Hang in there. Allow yourself something small as a treat- you'll probably feel better physically and once you pass the initial guilt, emotionally too. :)